Thursday, August 10, 2017

Me. Looking for someone to lean on

A night when even the lampposts slowly fall asleep
There is nothing to lean on
At day's end when even shadows are faint
That's when I met you

My tired and exhausted whines
You listened to all of my feelings
And watching you listening to me
I can relax now

Even after I blink my eyes
Please stay next to me
Because I like the shoulders you let me lean on

You make me believe in myself
Thanks to your pats on my small back
I can empty my mind and Fall Asleep Again

In case you wake me up from my sleep
I saw you holding your breath for me
Your hands gently brush by
This touch, I pretend to not notice
I open my eyes and close them
I want to stay next to you for longer

For some reason, my mind keeps filling with worry
I pray that you don't disappear
Into a midsummer night's dream
I pray, for days to be like today

Even if I fall in deep sleep
Please stay next to me, forever
Because I like your warm open arms so much

I now have the entire universe
With your warm breath, without wavering
You soothed my heart

Where could I found you? The person I could lean on

Monday, July 17, 2017

It's hurt... But i'm okay

It hard to express
When it comes to pain inside
Deep in your heart
Cannot be show and look physically
So ‘that’ person cannot feel how I been through
How I truly feel
How I truly face
How I truly pain

He make me explain
Like it’s that simple and easy
I try…
I try…
Yes. I do try…
But its cannot be explain
Not THAT easy!
It make me feel much more pain

If I could hurt myself
To express and show it to him
I will
But, swear to me
You could never regret it
Regret on what will happen to me
Since if that happen
I will end up
THE END live for me
I kill myself

Monday, July 10, 2017

After awhile

For some reason, today feels so difficult and exhausting
I hold my pillow closer as I sit alone in my room
I fidget with my phone as my heart

For some reason feels empty today
But then...
The suddenly ringing phone surprises me
I hear your voice, asking me if I ate today
The voice that I really miss
Voice of you Mum...
Although sometime she annoyed me
Today those words feel different
And all the forgotten promises I’ve made come flooding back to me
I think of my mom
I cried...

I will become a warm hearted person
I will become a person that puts others first
I will fulfill the wishes of your love
The person who I share my dreams with
The one who used to comb my hair

Although at times, I hurt you because of my wrong decisions
You quietly watched over me from afar
Although I’m still a young and clumsy child
I think I understand now
The meaning of your silent prayers

What should I do?
My heart is still so small
If I let go of your hand
I’m not sure if I can make it without you
I don’t think I’m ready yet
And I’m scared

I will become a wise daughter (give me courage)
No matter where I go
I will be a daughter you can be proud of
I will fulfill the wishes of your love
With all the love that you have shown me
I will have a warm heart
I was too shy to express this to you clearly
Mom, I truly love you

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